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'esquey
13 July 2010 @ 10:40 pm


It was hard to see the rainbow through the rain these past few months.  However, as is the case with life, where there is a down, there inevitably is an up.

I wanted to share that I’ve accepted a position at the American Psychology Association as Project Manager for the APA Socioeconomic Status Related Cancer Disparities (SESRCD) Program
 
I’ve done quite a bit of ‘soul searching’ as of late and have embraced my heart’s passion to be involved in mental health.  You guys know how important I think therapy is, and how fundamentally important mental health has been to changing my life completely, and I'd like to translate my experience in the workplace.  I feel very strongly about patient advocacy and increasing the “face” of mental health to the public, and this new position should be a beautiful transition into mental health from the work I conducted at NCI.

I'm actually a supervisor in this position and have two employee's who report directly to me, which is both exciting and scary at the same time.  The project is 100% on my shoulders to run, which is a lot of responsibility, but I really relish the project and the exciting times ahead.  I have a lot of creative control over the direction this project will take, and can't wait to really sink my hands into it. 

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My first year here in DC has been a doozer, huh?

Thanks to the therapy I received in ATL, my confidence was an an all-time high when I moved to this brand-new, high-powered city up north, but as if often the case with life, I hit a bump when I least expected it.  I lost, or rather, temporarily misplaced, said newfound confidence when my capabilities were questioned at work, and I struggled hard to hold on to it.  Every day, anything I wrote (emails, meeting agenda's) were torn apart with edits, and over time, it got harder and harder to live with.  The constant complaints just wore on me, but luckily, at some point, my sense of humor kicked into overdrive, and all of it really fall off my shoulders.  I rolled my eyes, made the corrections, and went back to looking for jobs again.  I stopped fighting because I knew it wasn't a battle I could ever win.

When I finally left that work environment, I did so with some not-so-great feelings for S, but I DID make some wonderful connections.  While most people at the workplace had no idea what I was going through, when I shared I was looking for a better placement--7 of my supervisors encouraged me to put them down as references.

Outside of the work stress though, because I was unsure about my chances of securing another job in the current economic climate, part of my anxiety had to do with my fearing I would have to move back home with the parents.  While I love them intensely, it's not the most emotionally stable place for me, and part of the loss of confidence I experienced came from this very real fear that I might have to face that emotional challenge.

That said, my parents have been incredibly supportive at this time.  It's just living together which would drive me batty.

It is wonderful to start over again in DC.  This city tossed me up when I first walked in, but I'm going in for round two.
 
 
 
'esquey
08 June 2010 @ 10:47 am

Awhile ago, I promised an LJ friend I'd post an entry on how to find a good therapist.  I've had some experience with some great and not-so-great therapists, and it wasn't by chance that I came upon the good ones. 

The entry is a bit long, but I felt it important to be rather detailed because there are a number of steps to consider when making, what I think is, a really important decision.  Your therapist will ultimately require your utmost trust if you want to make true gains in therapy, and that trust can only be built if there's a good fit.  Once the trust is established, your therapist will have the power to influence the way you view the world around you.  It's a decision that deserves a lot of thought and care.

I saw a not-so-great therapist for four long years, and didn't stop seeing her because I didn't know she wasn't a good therapist.  Looking back on it now, however, I recognize that my gut *always* knew, I just didn't recognize the message for what it was.  I was never at ease with the therapist, I was always in a heightened state of anxiousness when in her office, and the entire time I thought that was my fault, but I see now, that when you're seeing someone whom you click with-- you're at ease unless you're discussing something particularly painful/anxiety inducing.

What made this particular therapist not-so-good?  She was a psychiatrist by training (an M.D.), and as such, did not receive the intense training required to administer transformative talk therapy (which psychologists, who have Ph.D's do).   She promised me she was using cognitive-behavioral techniques to help me, but I later learned that what she was doing was nothing of the sort.

I share that not as a horror story, or to scare you away from all psychiatrists, but to share why I think it's so important that a search is conducted.

If you have any questions at all, please don't hesitate to ask.

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'esquey
13 May 2010 @ 02:57 pm
A click of History
I
'm a huge history buff.

Even more than that, however, I'm a huge fan of 'then' and 'now' pictures which show landmarks and regions as they once were, and as they are now. 

This is my current coffee table book, which will soon be joined by this book, followed by this one (I lived in SF before I moved to ATL.)

There is something so haunting and gorgeous about old black and white photos of regions that are now  modernized, and something magical about comparing the two to find items that have survived the passage of time. Then and now photos are a wonderful way to conceptualize the rich history that exists for a location;  it's evidence that the the world once existed, and quite differently, from the one we live in now. 

When I get a free minute at work, I like to visit the blog Shorpy's, a collection of old Library of Congress photos of old time Americana.  The old photos by themselves are gems to look through, but every now and then, someone will respond to a post with a modern-day image of the same location capture  and it always captivates me.

Today, I came across one such gem that I'd like to share with you. I actually may make this 'Then and Now" feature a regular thing in my LJ since I love it so much.

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'esquey
12 May 2010 @ 11:34 am
A one word meme stolen from a few of you.

Answer all questions below using just one word...

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'esquey
26 April 2010 @ 11:52 pm
I'm a big fan of www.postsecret.com and today I came across one that ranks as among my most favorite:



What a beautiful way to live in the NOW..  To live this present moment with your loved ones as if you've traveled back in time and are seeing them again once they're gone.

How powerful is that. 

Made me think of my weekend with my parents-- had I seen it this way, it would have been so much more emotional.
 
 
 
'esquey
16 March 2010 @ 11:18 pm
Facts Of Life:

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much that they’d die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
4. You mean the world to someone.
5. Someone that you don’t even know exists; loves you.
6. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone..even if they don’t like you.
 

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I don't know if all of these are true, but hoping that they might be makes me happy.


Passage not from "Sex and the City", just thought the picture reflected the message well


 
 
 
 
 
'esquey
15 March 2010 @ 10:33 pm
Needed a reminder of this today. =)
 
 
 
'esquey
02 March 2010 @ 10:30 pm
I'm going to bring out one of my original "Inspiration" posts because I really needed to read it today.


 
 
 
'esquey
02 March 2010 @ 12:08 am
Boy, did I need to find this today.

(For those new to my list, I like to occasionally share quotes/pictures that are inspirational to me)




Can we hear it for #2, my boss could serve to hear that.

And I love #4.

And it never hurts to hear #7.